I dont know where to start
Other then telling you, you had my heart
Sitting where we use to lay
I had so much more to say
Look at me when I talk to you, not the floor
Even though your headed for the door
I know your not coming back
Thinking of all the things we now lack
&& When we talk your not the same
It's kind of lame

movin on

truth to be told;;i need to learn to let go of the past

you said you missed me
you said you needed me
you said i was like only one of the friends you really wanted
schools started now
youve prlly moved on
gone on with life with all your friends
that you actually get to talk to and see
but id prlly do the same thing

you got to call me for like 5 mins on your birthday
so i guess you remember me to some extent
but since then
if youve forgotten me
thats ok i guess
i'll be able to move on in time
it'll be hard cuz im sitting here
holding onto the past
holding on to you
holding on to what we had

i dont make promises i cant keep
i promised id be here waiting for you
no matter how long it takes
and im keepin that

its been so long
no doubt things will be different
but im prepared for that
not really but i'll say i am
try and cover the tears with a smile
try and go on like everythings ok

eeky

people talk about there bestfriends
and all the stuff they did together
i sit and stair into space
thinking of all the times we had together
then it reminds me im all alone with out you

they say
oh i havent seen my best friend in like a week
i sit there and say nothing
soon reminded its been almost two months
since ive got to see my best friend
but yet i sit there and say nothing

people chill with there friends
while im pushing mine away
they want me to come along
but i just tell them i cant
because im missing you to much

im fighting so many feelings
missing someone to be crazy with
feeling lonely without you
some times i just wanna break down
cry a little bit because i miss what we had so much
but i try and cover it with a smile
ill never trust anyone like i trust you
yes i have other friends, but none like you

feels like i have no one
feels like i lost everyone
know thats not true though
theres people there
just dont trust they'll stay around
think there just out to hurt me
for all i care they can all leave

the only best friend i need is you
the only friend i need is you
you left me before
and ive left you before
but those are in the past
lets leave them there

everything we had's slowly fading away
breaking apart
youve probabily moved on
but im sitting here
holding onto the past
trying ot hold on to what we had
i think i might be letting it slip away
because im not convinced you going to want me

imy

to hear you voice
or see your face
gives me hope
to see you again
soon reminded im hoping on nothing

its like a house with no roof
a song with out words
to see a little girl missing her best friend

its a rainbow with no rain
you with out me
me with out you
totals all in all
there is no more us

if you still want me
i hope you do
cuz i still want you
i'll be here waiting
as long as it takes
i promise i wont leave
theres no one like you
no one can take your place

to see your face
or hear your voice
gives me hope
to see you again
soon reminded im hoping on nothing

christian

hold on,
dont blink,
because after you do
its going to be all overwith
everything we worked so hard to rebuild
torn down to pieces

i miss are late night talks
about anything and everything
laughing the whole time
&& how you called 94.3 detication download
had them play "i kissed a girl"
for mitch
only you would do that

theres so much ive had to tell someone
but theres no one to tell
no one to listen
I'll probabily forget
by the next time we talk
when ever that may be,which no one really knows

we all make mistakes though
we all get punished for them
just some worse then others
we both knew you were the one
who got one of the worst
but i dont blame it all on you

does this mean we lost it all though?
just like before
forced to start all over
cuz we cant remember what we had?

it took a long while to get where we are now
from where we were
i really dont wanna
have ta start all of
if we dont have to

dreams

most arent achieveable
simple f**k ups in the past
come to haunt you
dreams are they just things that live in your heart?

never really think of them
never really let them cross your mind
they only remind you, how your nothing in life
never shair them with anyone
simply shows how much of a failure you are
dreams are they just things that live in your heart?

you have no where to go with life
theres no starting place...no ending place
for non existant things
no careers in mind, your done with life
you've got all you ever wanted out of it
dreams are they just things that live in your heart?

follow your heart, follow your hopes && dreams
must of followed them down the wrong path
might be a reason youve hit a dead end
maybe your hearts telling you something
you just cant hear it yet
dreams are they just things that live in your heart?

full of fears and mis conseptions

I'm full of fears
Might be able to fool you though
Don't hold me to high expectations
Because I dont want to disapoint you

I'm afraid of my past
Because people wont let it go and see beond it
I'm afraid of the future
Because I dont know what I want to do with my life
I'm afraid of success
Because I achieved it once or twice but it didnt seem as good as people made it sound
I'm afraid of failure
Because it's all I've ever known
I'm afraid of making mistakes
Because people in my life never let me forget them
I'm afraid of doing something stupid
Because all everyone does is laugh at me, only a few help me fix it
I'm afraid of becoming like my sister
Because thats what people expect from me
I'm afraid everyones out to hurt me
Because most people in my life have
I'm afraid everyones talking shit about me
Because either they believe what they hear, or they make up there own shit
I'm afraid of replacement
Because thats all I've ever known
I'm afraid of not graduating
Because of gym class

I'm full of fears
Might be able to fool you though
Dont hold me to high expectations
Because I dont want to disapoint you

you go to school
but dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

they tell you
that you cant graduate
with you class
they tell you
that youve failed to many classes
for it to even be possible

you go to school
but dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

you choose not to do anything
your the one who chose to fail
why would anyone wanna help you
when it comes to graduating
why would anyone wanna help you
when it comes to looking for collages

you go to school
but dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

even though you go to school
doesnt mean they promise
graduating
doesnt mean they promise
helping you find a collage
doesnt mean they promise
you anything

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

then your told
pass everything..
graduate with you class
something you never thought youd hear
gave you a little bit of hope
dont give up just yet

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

you consider trying
to participate
you consider trying
to pass
you consider trying
to get through each day
you consider trying
not to give up
you consider trying
a lot of things

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

then your told
you can have early graduation
something you never though possible
is this real?
or is it a dream?
are they looking at the right grades
yes as a matter of fact they are

you go to school
dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

you consider trying
even more things
actually have hope
maybe things are possible
maybe im not that bad a person
maybe a lot of things
but u cant promise anyone anything

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

now shits fucked wose then ever
first you cant graduate with your class
then it changes to
you can graduate with you class
IF you pass everything
then it changes to
you can graduate early
then it changes to
you cant graduate with you class
because of gym class

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

its gym class
youve proven you dont care
its gym class
why do you start caring now?
what changed everything?
you should care
shouldnt even effect you
your just where u were last summer
lost;hopless;failure;no confidance
just about to give up

you go to school
you dont really care
theres always next year
theres always summer school
theres always a reason not to care

my friends
the good old fights
every other week
replacement,let down,disapointed
& so much more
was all i knew

they made u cry
most of the time
didnt care much at all

did you go to notre dame?
mandi randomly blurts out
are you brooks cousin
mitch took no time to shot that one back
that was the start of sumthin
nunna of saw comin

she showed me stuff i didnt even know
the stupid fights everyother week
werent necessary
she never made me cry
like all the rest of them did
if anything
shes the one who held me when i cried
told me everything would work out
no matter what
she was always there
if anything
shes the one who stoped the tears

sum thing i never knew could happen
suddenly appeared right before my eyes

ive never had someone there like her
almost impossible not to tell her every thing
it just kinda happens
a part of me knows shes different
with no thought involved
trust her like never before
tell her almost everything inside me
ive never had someone like her before

life

its a path
no one know where youll end up
possibilities are endless
good bad
anywhere inbetween

find your purpose
your destiny
your innerself
take some chances
live in the moments
youll never forget

sounds so easy
they say creating your self
is the hardest part
living it
is the easyest part
follow your hopes && dreams
dont be afraid to be different

you created youself
not the life you wanted to live
you never imagined yourself here
did you do something wrong
was it one of the things
you regret doing

you get introuble
for failure
you get introuble
for success
are you suppose to
give up or keep goin

they say lifes a journey
an unguided path
they never included
lonelyness,fear,failure
your on your own
with no one there for you

past present future

You hate who you were
You hate who you are
Is there a change?
Theres a future
Will it change you?
Will you let it change you?


You know who you are
Know your potential
Know who your destin to be
Achieving thats the hardest
Do you know how to start?
Do you know where to go?
Is this just a blur
In a mess of confussion?


You have to be ready
You have to want to change
Know who your destin to be
Admire your potential
Cant let others tell you
What to do
It wont do anyone any good
Its all about you

Scared of the past
The presents hell
Scared of the future
Is this anyway to live
Scared of who you were
Scared of who you are
Scared of who you might become

change

Youve done so good
Your not who you were
Maybe im the only one to realise

People said otherwise
I denyed it
I knew what i seen
And i thought i knew
Maybe i should listen
Prlly learn more
Big mouth i know
It opens at the wrong time
Always, never fails

Just think
When you....up
Im the first one to get called
Im the first one to get questioned
Its always thought im a suspect

Im innocent
I dont want you introuble eather
I can only make you do things
To some extent
Then you take over
Make your own choices
Smart choices
The rite choices
I cant make them all for you

I thought you changed
I seen it
To quick to believe
Thought i could believe you
Guess i thought wrong

hurting

When everything starts to fall into place
Your adapting to your surroundings
Whats going on, your ok with it
Accept it weather you want to or not
Isnt a question

Someone always comes and.....it up
Some people mean it
Others dont realise
Should it matter if you mean it or not?
You still have......things up

Sorry is over rated
No one means it
It comes out of there mouth
Only what they know to say
Its a default
A reaction
If you were really sorry
It would of never happened
If you dont mean something
Keep your damn mouth shut

People are broken
People are hurting
They sure as hell
Dont need any help
Im sure if they did
It wouldnt be you

If this is your goal
If this is what you want
To hurt people
You can give up
Open your eyes
Realise for once
You won

What You Mean To Me

SARAH OWNS


I love you so much
Your simply amazing to me
One of the best people to come in my life
You mean everything to me
Please just promise me you wont leave me

I want you to be happy
I don’t wanna hold you back
From what you want out of your life
I want you to follow your heart
&& follow your dreams

I want us to work
Were really strong together
Its not going to be easy
Its going to be hard
Really hard
Were both young people
If we put are heart && soul together
I know we can make it work

You have you goals && your dreams
I have my goals && my dreams
We can bring them together
Create are goals && are dreams
Together with you by my side
I wouldn’t have it any other way

Im not perfect && your not perfect
We can be perfect together
Perfect for each other
Your heart && my heart combined

You make my life perfect
You complete me
I thought I had life good
If I thought it was good
Then you showed me perfect
A side of me I never knew existed
I don’t want to loose you
Ill do what ever it takes
You’ve changed my life
Baby Im just scared to loose you

When you leave please just know
No matter what happens to us
No matter where life takes us
You’ll always live inside my heart
There will always be a big chunk
That belongs to you
For all you’ve done for me
I cant say thank you enough
I cant say I love you enough
Its so much more then that

Ever Notice?

Have you ever noticed
Everything that can go wrong
Will go wrong
All the bad stuff that can happen
Will happen
It just seems that
The good people have to die young


Take a look around you
Everyones so fake
So hypocritical
And worst so two faced

People say to your face
I care, Im always here for you
You havent heard from them since
Or occassionally they take a second
To talk,it seems the process just repeats
Do they still care? Are they always going to be there for you

People say
You can always trust me with anything
They turn the....around walk away
Run there mouth about you
About what you said to them
How stupid you were to believe them


Your miserable the way it is
You dont need this bullshit
You need people to be there for you
Love you no matter what
Have a complete bitch fit at you
You find it in your heart
You love them no matter what
You hear how shitty of a person you are
Yet you still come back
Love them no matter what
You know what its like
To be them
You know they need you
No matter what they say
How they act
Love them no matter what
Nothing could change that

No matter who you are
What had happened
It always attracts the good and bad people
If you were only surrounded by good people
You'd be better off, heal quicker
&& Change your life for the better

Look At Me

I dont think you
Realise who I am
How much I've changed
You still treat me the same

I hate school But I still go
I've got the best grades I've ever had
I've stoped skipping classes
&& Actually go to them
I've stoped sleeping in class
Now I just stair off into space
But thats a start

I get introuble because I dont behave
I rebel because I got introuble
Which just leads me into more trouble
Though I own up to my actions
I deal with the conciquences
&& Take responcibility
Of what I failed to do

I continue going to class
I still participated in what was going on
Do the homework, come prepared to class
No matter if I wanted to or not

I try harder then I did before
To come to class no matter what
Behave,not get introuble
&& Participate in what was going on
Weather I wanted to or not
Making sure the homework was always done
&& Coming to class with everything I needed
So I could be successful

I never use to be this way
I've learned to change
For the better no matter what it takes
I want to be seen as successful
Not a failure who doesnt care

That was me before
The person you thought you knew
This is me now
Look me in the eye and tell me I havent changed

Love (not really sure what to call it so this works for now)

Why is it
No matter who you date
Or how good they are to you
You always end up getting hurt

When you do everything right
They find a way to hurt you
When you do everything wrong
They find a way to hurt you
You have no where to go
Theyve messed with your head
Like never before

Havent you been hurt enough
I think so
I dont know how much more you can take
But you are one strong gurl
Whose never given up

But still
When your with them you follow "there rules"
When your not with them
You still have to follow "there rules"
Is it in hopes of getting back with them
Or so when you happen to see them
They dont call you out on something
You know they hate

When will people wake the.....up
Realise how badly youve been hurt
In the past, In the present and scared of the future

Im not asking for you to be judged
From your past or present
Just enough to realise
Your hurt your damaged
Because of them

Its not my place to say it
But i dont care
Imma say what I want
Being as someone who
Cares about you and the choices you make
&& Loves you with everything they have

Im tirred of
Seeing you hurting so bad
When you fall to the ground
Because the pain is so bad
The only person who can help you up
&& Put your feet back on the ground
Is the person who knocks you down
Then walk away like nothing ever happened
Im tirred of it

It's Just Me

The only thing I can be is ME
Its the only thing
I know how to do
Its the only thing I want to do

I dont want to be judged
I dont want to be sterotyped
I dont want to be a hypocrit
I just want to be ME

I want to be loved
For who I am
For whats on the inside
Not whats on the outside

I just want to be me
I know I make bad choices
I know my priorities
Are not in order
I'm awair of all of this

I dont know it all
I'll admit it
I'll admit I dont know
What I want in life
Or who I want to be
I'm ok with that
All I want to do
Is be ME

People are different
Feel success in different way
Have different views && different goals
Thats what makes us individuals

If only I could be me
That'd be success
Thats all I want out of life
It's the best thing out there

Differences

I wish you would learn to think before you acted
Listened before you spoke
&& Most of all
Learned from your//our mistakes

I'll flat out say it
It's your life
Do what you want
But it reflects me to

Your doing what you think is rite
Your doing what you think you need to do to get by
Did you ever consider me?
What I think is rite
What I think you need to do to get by

I'll flat out say it
Its your life
Do what you want
But it reflects me to

I dont agree with what you do
But thats just me
I cant change the fact
More then likely
Your choices hurt me
More then they hurt you

I'll flat out say it
It's your life
Do what you want
But it reflects me to

You make choices
They hurt you in the begining
But you accept them
Let them go && move on

I'll flat out say it
It's your life
Do what you want
But it reflects me to

Your choices dont hurt me
Just in the begining
Im not like that
I dont just
Accept them
Let them go && move on
I remember them
I'll never forget them

I'll flat out say it
It's you life
Do what you want
But it reflect me to

My eyes burn from crying
My stomach hurts
Because everything I do
I think of you

I'll flat out say it
It's your life
Do what you want
But they reflect me to

Now you know how I feel
&& What I think of it all
I dont care if it matters to you
Or what you think of it
I just needed Closher
To let you know how I feel
&& My views on it

I'll flat out say it
It's your life
Do what you want
But it reflects me to

Its Not Just You

When you feel all alone
Like no one cares
&& everything just collapses on you
Your never alone

People come in are lives
People leave are lives
It just a challange

Your never alone
Theres always someone there for you
The real question is
Do you know who they are?

Theres a lot of things no one says
But they should of
Letting us know
They'll always be there for you
That they'll never give up on you
And when you fall
They wont trip over you
Like everyone else does
But they'll stop && pick you up

If any of theese things were ever said
Would you still feel so alone?
Most likely not
Just knowing someone out there
Cares enough about you
Makes such a difference in some peoples lives

There are people
Who fear love
Because theyve never known what is like
Isnt being loved one of the best feelings ever?

There are people
Who fear success
Because theyve never had anyone
Who actually believed in them
Isnt success one of the best things ever?

Theres a lot of people
Who have never had someone like that
Theyve never had that feeling before
All theyve known is to be alone
Theyve been stuck in there dark world
This whole time

When you feel all alone
Like no one cares
&& everything collapsed on you
Your not alone

The Good and The Bad

You try hard in school
You get really good grades
Weather you like it or not
You still willing go
And do whats expected of you

You can see it coming
A decrease in a certain class
You take responsibility
Of what you failed to do

You try so hard to better yourself
You'll do what ever it takes
Even when you realise
No one supports you
You continue to try
You yourself know you potential

People still look at you as a failure
People including Parents
Don't believe in second chances anymore
You fail at something once
They Just give up on you

You dont care your re taking it anyways
weather you like it or not
you still willingly go
and do whats expected of you